You're right of course, I probably will never find all the answers and deep down I am prepared for this. Its only right that I dont get too obsessed in finding out about my Dads past and miss out on him in the here and now. Despite being deprived of love as a child my Dad has always been a giver of love, he adores children and is a brilliant granddad. Infact I think he probably makes for a better kid now than when he should have been one officially! If you get what I mean!!